Getting to know oneself

Here the place where I share my shame of the demons that follow me on my daily basis, but yet I am too weak to let those close to me in.  Last year was a year full of opportunities to grow as a person.  It taught me that no matter how close you can be to another person, you must never rely your mental stability on their existence, I did and when he left a felt lost for awhile.  Now I have regained the old person I was before he came into my life, but not completely because of him I changed.  I have become someone new, a little wiser when it comes to love or so I hope.  I went back to enjoying the things that used to make me so sad.  It took me a really long time but the only thing I regret is wasting so much time and energy on him.  Even this thought is a waste but it's part of the progress.  It keeps the ball rolling and it makes me feel less pathetic.  In another news I am in really good health I'm still over weight but no longer obese, it's a process and as long as I don't give up I'm still pushing to reach my goal :)