Getting to know oneself

Here the place where I share my shame of the demons that follow me on my daily basis, but yet I am too weak to let those close to me in.  Last year was a year full of opportunities to grow as a person.  It taught me that no matter how close you can be to another person, you must never rely your mental stability on their existence, I did and when he left a felt lost for awhile.  Now I have regained the old person I was before he came into my life, but not completely because of him I changed.  I have become someone new, a little wiser when it comes to love or so I hope.  I went back to enjoying the things that used to make me so sad.  It took me a really long time but the only thing I regret is wasting so much time and energy on him.  Even this thought is a waste but it's part of the progress.  It keeps the ball rolling and it makes me feel less pathetic.  In another news I am in really good health I'm still over weight but no longer obese, it's a process and as long as I don't give up I'm still pushing to reach my goal :)

To letting go...

For a really long time my goal was motivated to impress a person who does even care if I die or live.  I use to think that if I change he would look my way and I was wrong, if I'm going to change I have to do it for me but this time witho an ulterior motive to motivate me.  Its being hard and painful but I must not give up :) some day I will find the one that will be thrilled to be by side.  Till then I must work to love myself :)

Not going to give up

Since the end of June I was feeling like I was starting to lose the war, the month of July was a total waste but August did a major turn around in my life and I started to work out. I started slow at first but not giving up almost a month and my family has started to see the difference.  Now the September is around the corner I have decided that even if I lost a few battles I refuse to loose the war, so I will be adding a new regiment of healthy eating to my school routine and combined it with my lovely workouts to completely win this war to the extra weight.

Lost motivation

    I have a tendency to give up when things get hard, but not this time rereading my post helps me and gives me hope that I have walked and that I able to walk again.  This time is my time!!! I have a feeling that this year it going to be full unexpected events and I'm looking forward all the positive things that I can improve in my life.  I feel sad that I have wasted two weeks of perfectly good exercising and eating healthy,  but I also feel good that I was able to take this let down and was able to pick myself up with time to not let this summer go to waste.  My goal seems far from here, but I have hope that one day I'll be able to turn my dream into a reality.  :)  I feel great I want to lose the weight that stands between me and my happiness.

15 Weeks of Goals

Exercise is amazing I don't think I can give up the dosage of happiness that it gives.  

So I've divide my weight loss diet in time laps of 15 weeks and I'm in week number 2, I vow to put up my first pic when I reach my 20 lb weight lost :) Hopefully it will be by week number 4 :) I am super excited!

Weight in and measurement are in every Friday :) in only two days yay!!!

11 lb

I lost 11lb since I started and I'm happy but no where near close to satisfy I must continue to strive towards a healthy new me :)

I did it!!!

I finish my Green Juice challenge feeling super happy and ready for the all my veggie month :)

  Later today I weight myself to see my progress little by little I'm gonna get through this :)

  My friends are amazing and I love them, those true ones the ones that have and want to have in my life :)