For a really long time my goal was motivated to impress a person who does even care if I die or live. I use to think that if I change he would look my way and I was wrong, if I'm going to change I have to do it for me but this time witho an ulterior motive to motivate me. Its being hard and painful but I must not give up :) some day I will find the one that will be thrilled to be by side. Till then I must work to love myself :)