Walking challenge

Second challenge walking every day for 30 minutes added to the water challenge

For a Brighter Day

     My reasons to smile have to be endless but for today HE is not one of them.  For a really long time he had been so, but no more.  Everyday I'm growing stronger and his life in general affect's me less and less.  I feel free at last and much much happier.  Today I gained something amazing, the fact that my mother sees me as much more mature young adult.  This to me is a big step forward, and yes I know is was because of him that I had to grow. That doesn't mean that he gets to share my victory.  That just means that everyday he is more and more part of my past then my present.  Today I'm happy I have tons of things to be grateful and tons of people that make me happy.  

Picking Up The Shaved Pieces

     When I let you in I had no idea the tremendous part of myself I was going to shave off to be able to make myself fit to you.  The amounts of things I stopped enjoying because I was becoming a little like you.  I was losing the uniqueness of myself, but today I got a piece of myself back :) and little by little I'll go back to enjoying the things I once loved.  I must thank you for the strength and courage that I gained when I let you into my life.      
- To someone that I used to love <3

Visualization:
    Thinking about my problems and the things that border me doesn't help me find solutions so I found that if I visualize my problems being solved, I'm more capable to do the things I need to do to get to my solution.  Yesterday I saw him and felt empty I looked into his eyes and they were quiet, his shy smile was blank it lack of feelings, it was just there.  It was horrible to see that his eyes don't look at me the way mine look at him.  And there is nothing for me to change that absolutely nothing... Before I was resigned that if I wasn't going to have him in a romantic way then I still had him as a friend, but now he is someone that I used to love.  To be honest I can't yet say that I don't love him, but I'm working really hard to achieve that.

Today I want to visualize myself as a strong woman that is able to be happy without being dependent on a man to her feel complete. I want to be healthy mentally and physically.  And most important I want to be happy with what I'm given each and everyday...<3 

1 Water Challenge :
                             Duty Drinking 2 litters of Water this week
                           

Being Alone Heals My Soul... 

     I miss him, can denied that fact, but not seeing him helps me heal.  I wish I could stop missing him and return to my life previous to his involvement.  To those days where seeing a cute guy and fantasying about the what ifs was enough to satisfy my curiously on the opposite sex. To those days where my biggest worry was being in time for work and where my time was spend doing things that made me happy.  Nothing is forever and I will forget and be a better woman thanks to the sour experience he put me through... Hope 

Snowflake

... I rarely feel bad about my weight or the way I look, even though I'm well aware that I'm over 70 lbs overweight.  I kills me to know my weight.  I hate that I'm the fattest cousin and that for my age I should weight a lot less. Today ate like a pig and I hate myself...When I feel like this, I don't want to live with this weight defining who I am, and what I'm capable.